Dogg, lower right, watching her favorite TV show.
At the risk of getting creepy, I have to tell this story.
Last week I had a horrible nightmare that someone had -- through shocking negligence -- killed several of my chickens.
I chalk this up to my hyper sense of responsibility for these birds. They depend solely on me for their well being. The most basic elements of their health -- food and water -- not to mention other niceties like cleanliness and fresh air... all dependent on me. Big responsibilities.
I've always maintained that I would have been the mom who left the baby on the top of the car and drove away.
I only just last year decided I was responsible enough to get a dog. (That's when I started referring to the cats as "training wheel pets.")
The nightmare left me shaken and angry. I actually had to get up, in the middle of the night, and go check on the girls to make sure that they were okay.
Since then, I've been even more concerned about my ability to butcher these chickens when the day comes. Last night, I seriously considered taking them to a butchering house. And -- to my surprise -- I immediately rejected the idea.
I've been to butchering parlors. They're not all a house of horrors. The small local butchers in our area are clean and efficient, their outfits are well run, and I'm sure that they're not at all cruel or malicious.
However, there's no way that I could drive up to the loading dock, hand over my chickens, and let anyone else do the dirty work for me.
No, when the day comes, it will be me that has to look them in the eye and then kill them.
God, that sounds creepy even to me.


